About life...

Sometimes, life sucks. People walk and stay then they leave without telling u the reason even they do the reason is just a crap excuse. Well, life is not always perfect and being depressing alone at home will not make any difference so yea I stood up and move on.
School ball is coming up in two days and I am going with nic, Selina, Kristy and Serena. I should b somehow happy but a feeling pull me back as they said that they didn't want to come overnight. I'm fine but somehow disappointed as she promised but broke it after. Ugh. This is what u call best friend... I'm not asking her back and I don't want to. Is not like I have to please her to join us with the after ball ... No comment and I'm trying to b care free...

有人吗？

看着不一样的连续剧，羡慕着不一样的爱情，期望着爱的到来。我每天都在想为什么我会没人爱我是不是都比别人多一些？ 笨多一些，肥多一些，丑多一些，总之都比别人多那一些些。 我多两个月就快18了。可是连一个男朋友都没有过我是的确想被爱，想有人会在意，有人会早晚send一封message just to say morning and hey.
可是人都看外表，人都是现实的，没有人会像在连续剧里一样！故事都是虚假的。:'(

J.

Friends aren't always as good as you thought they would me.

Well, the title of the post says it all.
Things been happening, first is Selina then now is Her, a friend who I once thought she was more than what I expected to have throughout my whole life. She left and pass on the shits and go on to a friend who I've no comment about but from China. I'm not being racist or whatever shits. Just saying that Natasha is just being such a dog behind her. Zzj is just annoys sometimes but the thing is I never hates her. I can't find a point to hates her but now both of them are just like magnet. Not try to be mean but the truth I see is both of them are just like dog with its owner. *no offense* Besides, I'm not jealous that they are close (well,a bit actually) but at the end I still don't think my 2years friendship with Natasha will lose to a 6months old friend. In reality I've lost my confident. A friend that you think she will stays as long as you would; will not always do / think the same.

I do wonder, what's the point of meet new people when no one bothers to make effort to stay as long as you wish they will...
Things and thoughts are just pointless.

J.

I wish...

Ugh, another day of studying for coming mocks exam which is on next Thursday and arthistory basically took over my life. O well, heard stuff from James and he's found his partner for the coming prom. And yes i wish someone will.at least ask me. I actually wonder am i really that bad in everything. I should say I am not bad but just not good enough, maybe? Ughhh, lifes a borr without some problems i guess.

I wonder am really that not good enough for stuff like this? Not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not smart enough and not good enough to do anything. I mean in horoscope the ones who are scorpio get to get a boyfriend/girlfriend but im like the only one who is alone by myself every single year, month and day. I just dont get it am i really that bad? :'(

Enough of saying...
Pray.

J.

27th of August,

The 4th/5th day I lose her...
Selina Cheng...
One of my close friend in nz i shall say and no i dont hav much friend like any other people but I just need close friend instead of just lots of friends. People often say close/best friend wont live you alone and yet she left just because of the little argument she had with ZZJ/N/N. Well, I cant blame anyone it was me that bring it up and i just karma comes around. In my heart I didnt want to lose this friend in fact I lost her and we never talk like how we used to and never react to people like how we used to. we are never more than stranger. Guess our friendship just ended like that without saying anything special but because of a person who comes along and messes us up.
I will keep it in mind, things should not mess up the one it happen unless you are the one who brought it up. I hav got more than enough now I will just shut and  stay at where I am suppose to be and no comment. friends is jst someone who comes around and leave.

I see the diffrence.

there I was tumblring and I saw this.
Personally, I think it is true... I see the differences between myself and the people around me.

A lesson in psychology.

Try to see all these in real life, and a good example on one of that is your own self.

• When a person laugh too much even on stupid things, that person is sad deep inside.
• When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely.
• When a person talk less, or he/she talks fast, that person keeps secrets.
• When a person can’t cry, that person is weak.
• When a person eats in abnormal way, that person is is tension.
• When a person cry on little things, that person is innocent and soft-hearted.
• When a person gets angry on silly things, that person is in love.

Whats the point.

Well. Tuesday n for me is like a day without a friend at the first half. I shall say. Hmm, Here it goes....
Got to school, feeling weird abt her with what she has done n yes it is annoying to see when she is close with her enemy. She can get the Golden Glode Award like really. In a way she acts to every effing ppl arnd me.like ntg has been happening. Acted like ntg has ever happen.  In a way i really think shes a bitch bt somehow shes a good friend. Im not sure which way yo keep. I mean i really dont wanna.lose a best friend like what i have done before..
Regrets happen but forgiveness come before it.