About life...

Sometimes, life sucks. People walk and stay then they leave without telling u the reason even they do the reason is just a crap excuse. Well, life is not always perfect and being depressing alone at home will not make any difference so yea I stood up and move on.
School ball is coming up in two days and I am going with nic, Selina, Kristy and Serena. I should b somehow happy but a feeling pull me back as they said that they didn't want to come overnight. I'm fine but somehow disappointed as she promised but broke it after. Ugh. This is what u call best friend... I'm not asking her back and I don't want to. Is not like I have to please her to join us with the after ball ... No comment and I'm trying to b care free...

有人吗？

看着不一样的连续剧，羡慕着不一样的爱情，期望着爱的到来。我每天都在想为什么我会没人爱我是不是都比别人多一些？ 笨多一些，肥多一些，丑多一些，总之都比别人多那一些些。 我多两个月就快18了。可是连一个男朋友都没有过我是的确想被爱，想有人会在意，有人会早晚send一封message just to say morning and hey.
可是人都看外表，人都是现实的，没有人会像在连续剧里一样！故事都是虚假的。:'(

J.

Friends aren't always as good as you thought they would me.

Well, the title of the post says it all.
Things been happening, first is Selina then now is Her, a friend who I once thought she was more than what I expected to have throughout my whole life. She left and pass on the shits and go on to a friend who I've no comment about but from China. I'm not being racist or whatever shits. Just saying that Natasha is just being such a dog behind her. Zzj is just annoys sometimes but the thing is I never hates her. I can't find a point to hates her but now both of them are just like magnet. Not try to be mean but the truth I see is both of them are just like dog with its owner. *no offense* Besides, I'm not jealous that they are close (well,a bit actually) but at the end I still don't think my 2years friendship with Natasha will lose to a 6months old friend. In reality I've lost my confident. A friend that you think she will stays as long as you would; will not always do / think the same.

I do wonder, what's the point of meet new people when no one bothers to make effort to stay as long as you wish they will...
Things and thoughts are just pointless.

J.

I wish...

Ugh, another day of studying for coming mocks exam which is on next Thursday and arthistory basically took over my life. O well, heard stuff from James and he's found his partner for the coming prom. And yes i wish someone will.at least ask me. I actually wonder am i really that bad in everything. I should say I am not bad but just not good enough, maybe? Ughhh, lifes a borr without some problems i guess.

I wonder am really that not good enough for stuff like this? Not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not smart enough and not good enough to do anything. I mean in horoscope the ones who are scorpio get to get a boyfriend/girlfriend but im like the only one who is alone by myself every single year, month and day. I just dont get it am i really that bad? :'(

Enough of saying...
Pray.

J.